argg... the number the bank's financial officer gave me doesn't work in my area. I try another number and it takes me 4 tries to be able to stay focused long enough on the talking babble coming through the phone before I figure out which option will get me to someone who can help. I hate automated phone systems. They drive me spinny!! And if there are more than 3 options then I am lost. Okay... I pick an option.... They need my bank card number so I go get it but its not the number they want. I try another number I have recorded and its not right either. I am beginning to looooose it here!! arg! panic!!! Breath.

I hang up walk around my room a few times... breath... affirm... its okay... I'm okay.

I try again. I finally figured it out and I am talking to a real person. phew!! A zillion questions later and the resolution is that if I move my payment date ahead by one day then I can opt to just pay the interest on my mortgage for this month only. Oaky that's something I can work with. I agree and we say goodbye.

Big breath.... time for lunch. My goodness. So tired!! But I got through it and I am still okay. Maybe a little more haggered but now I can eat my lunch in peace.

Will get to paying some bills now with the last few dollars I have to work with befor they cut me off from heat, phone, internet etc etc and I will eep the faith that before the month is out some money will flow my way again. hope hope. affirm. affirm.

Time for lunch and that walk to the river.....