As I was driving a little bit ago to pick up my kids it occurred to me that I am upset with those burnouts! I was and am. Again, I was blaming them for the predicament that I found myself in. Very interesting. In my last thread this theme of me being upset with others came out. I am sure these are linked. I could have never come to this realization without this thread and all of your replies! Thank you so much for helping me to process this. Now I need to run with this new discovery and see where else it leads me to.

Hi Blue, I grew up stuffing my feelings. Now I have learned otherwise but this could be just triggering going on here which is taking me back to the past??

My family and I went to one of those pottery places a few weeks ago to paint the pottery. We were all choosing our pieces and what we wanted to do with it. I was struggling to choose how I wanted to paint my plate. My 8 yr old points to a color and says "Mom, you love this color, choose this one". She was exactly right. It was a perfect choice for me but why the heck didn't I know that! I said something about it at the time and my daughter said "You don't know what you like!" Yes, my darling, I am clueless sometimes about what I want....

I will have to think more on what I am trying to contain concerning how I am feeling about myself when with others?????

You are really lucky Blue that you have friendships.........

I'll go read your thread Melbadaze. Thanks for your post!