I thought this one might put me in the hospital, even though I have never been in the hospital. The agony is unreal. I have been slowly trying to put my life back together and I am barely beginning. I still have so much stuff to get through. Every morning I wake up thinking of him and how he is not here anymore, and how he abruptly exited my life to be with his ex wife. When I met him he had been divorced for over 3 years. But she would not stop meddling in our relationship and finally she got what she wanted, he left me for her. I am now trying to pick up the pieces and put myself back together.
I just want to escape it, to make it all go away, but there is no escaping it. There is only the long grieving processes that one has to go through, that sucks the life out of you and takes all joy and hope away.
This is life....this happens every day in relationships.
But it doesn't make it any easier to bear.