I hate those stupid feelings.

You think you've got it figured out, someone else proposes something else different or you figure out differently, and you're *mostly* at peace with this new thing - and then you have an "what if" moment. Or several. It's so hard to make progress if our old beliefs (which are usually wrong generally speaking) keep showing back up when we're trying to believe the current ("good") things!
Shifts in belief are hard work and require a lot of reinforcement. If you think it will help, then email him and ask him to call or to email you back. At least then you'll get validation sooner rather than later (like at the next session!)