well...he knows what you want to talk about and that's not in his interests why bother!!!!
Save yourself some respect and dignity and stop talking to him even if he called or text massaged you, don't respond back and don't bring excuses for him....he's not worth a penny!!!!
Stay strong and cry alone but keep your head up!!!!!
you won't get anything from him....no miracle would happen....sorry to be so harsh, but that's the truth....
I've been there and I know how it feels....just cry it out and let it go...
meditate, dance, talk to a friend, exercise....paint, watch a funny movie....do something to get distracted from him....
my heart is with you
Marjan