Tree- I think this is related. I have a terrible time second guessing myself. I think it might be related to wondering if an ah-ha moment is really an uh-oh moment.

I make a decision, like my decision, then think...uh-oh...this coild be the complete and total opposite of the direction I need to go in. I did the wrong thing, said the wrong thing. I have a feeling its related to not being able to trust my own perception of things. I was told "that didnt happen" "I never said that" "You did this" "you did that" when my perception was completely different and definitely NOT validated. I am a work in progress when it comes to trusting myself and how I perceive my own decisions and thought processes. I struggle with not needing validation for decisions/perceptions other people might take for granted.

I agree...blah.....but I say trust your AH-HA! It sounds good to me....Im going to validate your ah-ha....and I think everyone here will, too. You have gained some power and control over these horrid things that happened by living your life and knitting. And talking about all of it.