Yeah, I think I am just going to block the motherf! I did some journaling and discovered he triggered me about my ex when he wispered in my ear...now I have my ex dancing in my head and a strong mixture of sadness, longing. I feel my heart being pulled, so heavy I can hardly move or speak. That was an unconditional love that I carry with me in my heart. And my date brought it up for his own sexual fantasy. Sigh. Guess I am still grieving that loss. Still can't write about the ex.