Blue it sound like you had a really open discussion about your experiences and the way you expressed yourself. I think I would like to get some of that stuff out of my head too. I just haven't been able to do it yet.

IDK about the self worth issue. But for me... Somehow I need to break the belief ingrained belief that sex is nothing more than me letting someone take advantage of me or get off on me. I haven't been able to OWN the feeling of a shared experience. I think I have learned now what shared experiences feel like in other types of relationships...just can't transfer that to sex. For me...that's the connection that abuse severed.