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I know I need to take a leave of absence from work to get my medication right because I can feel myself losing it, but I am terrified that people will find out or look down upon me negatively. I am around 60 coworkers and over 1000 customers that I see every day; when I miss one day everyone is asking me where I was. I'm scared they'll find out why I'm leaving; I'm most concerned about my managers stopping my training for management; thinking I can't handle it. The last time I suffered a bout of depression was almost 7 years ago but it lasted about a 1-year and a half. I cannot wait until this is over.
Has anyone been in this situation with work? How did you deal with it?
I think I am in a lose-lose situation, not only I am I feeling bad but normally I can hide it from other people. I saw a pdoc last Friday and she asked me about 5 times in less than 30 minutes if I am feeling suicidal or having suicidal thoughts, I said no and she told me I looked bad. She will probably try to commit me anyway, I am questioning whether I should go back Friday, my job finding out I was involuntarily committed is probably worse than taking the leave myself.
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