Hey Melissa,
Weakness isn't your problem. It takes guts to deal with this and to ask for help. Don't sell yourself short. Do you have someone close you can see or talk to on a daily basis? A good friend? Don't let yourself get isolated, even though that's your first inclination. I learned that the hard way from my first episode of major depression. Having someone who will check in on you makes a world of difference. Coming into this forum was a good decision.
Hang in. If it helps, I've been exactly where you are. It does get better. There's no particular significance to this dancing chili. I just think he's funny. Hope he makes you smile!