Okay, yes, when we met he told me right up front that he was just looking for a "friend with benefits". I went along with it because of our chemistry. I was dating a lot of men at the time. I was always doing drinks & dinner dates & really enjoying myself as these men were taking me out & possibly pursuing me. I was only sleeping with Matt, my "fwb". I was honestly out doing real dating in the hopes of finding someone who I could pursue something real with. Unfortunately, none of those dates worked out or went any further than 4 or 5 dates. I knew at the time that Matt was dating the same way I was & he was also looking for a relationship. I did NOT think our sexual relationship would have gone this far. It's been 7 months. I would have never guessed I'd still be seeing him. So, I ended up falling for him. Its my own fault for continuing to see him. I hate that I actually care for this man. I hate that I'm feeling this way. I guess because I have a heart, I refuse to believe that he feels absolutely nothing for me.I also refuse to let him not take any of the responsibility for our relationsip. Obviously, he just doesn't care enough to even be considerate to me right now.
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