Blue, you're doing great work. You give me hope that I can get farther with a new T, though I think you can win an award for the most progress in the quickest time!

I'm glad you feel like you have a secure attachment to ftt. She seems like the perfect T for you.

I'm sorry you didn't learn trust from either of your parents. That's so sad. What ftt told you about acting out sa makes sense to me. If it's what you experienced, maybe that was your way of making sense out of it, or responding by making it "normal" or something like that. I don't think you have to "figure it out" yet. Ftt will help you sort it all out.

It hurts me to read that you were manipulated and felt used. No child should have to endure that. But you're going to get healed from all that because you're getting the help you need.