Thank you Poison Ivy 81, Its a long story,but I cannot look back, or forget the past because this is a dear friend who is part of my future.Hes having a tough time now and its not his fault really , but has kinda pushed me and others away , but i know he needs us,and we want to be there for him. I have good things in my life but he is a big part of that, so him not around,is hard to handle. I really cant talk to a therapist,I wish though,so I like coming here,I really love talking to you guys because Im so sad these days.