</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
sj0401 said:
Again, I am in direct contact with my T and she is aware of all of this.
I want to live...I just need to stop feeling like my only way of spelling relief is by ending it all.
I know I have to concentrate on the good things in my life.
It is just so hard to see through my "black slime"
Again, the support here is overwhelming and keeping me going this weekend.
(((to all those helping me throught this)))
(((to all those knowing exactly how I feel and trying to do the same thing I am to survive)))

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> You will get there sj. The dedication you've shown to making it through these excruciating moments until Tuesday show you've got grit. You've got what is needed to change that feeling that there is only one answer--"out".

You WILL get there. Don't worry about how or when yet. For now keep going through these moments and staying focused on the fact that you know you DO want to live and that you will get past the overwhelming feelings of wanting "out".

Keep sorting. Keep posting. Keep oozing out that black slime so that you can see more clearly. Tuesday's therapy appointment is the goal. We'll help you get there.

again with hope,
__zh