That DOES sound like a good session.

I find it really hard to find the balance between staying busy and living my life and allowing myself to look at the things I need to look at to heal. When am I supressing something that I need to look at...when am I allowing myself to spiral out when I just need to move on?

Do you think that it's hard to let yourself look at stuff because your T is so gung-ho about "keep moving, stay busy, don't get caught up in this stuff"? I don't mean that in a negative way...just genuinely curious. I know I am WAY sensitive because I grew up with "DON'T TELL, it's not that bad, etc", so it's really easy for me to take something from T like "hey, why don't you do some physical work and put this stuff aside for now" as "don't talk about this anymore, it's NOT okay".