So recently (Oct 20th) I started at Job Corps. This place is complete ****. But due to the fact that I have been unmotivated and depressed my entire life... I have failed out of every other school situation. I have never been able to find the help that I need. If I tell my friends, they change the subject, if I tell my family, they blame themselves. So over the years I have learned to pretend like everything is fine, when it's not.

This is ****. The students are stupid. The staff are corrupt. Everything gets stolen unless locked away. Even if it is locked away... it gets stolen... the RA's know our locker combos, and make deals with students to let them in for weed, cocaine, and other various services.

I have been forced into three different fights chipped a I have had $180, 2 concert tickets, 3 phones, and many other various things stolen. No type of reimbursment has been made. Even though it has been promised.

Other less socially accepted students are straight up abused... by students... by staff. It's disgusting. Granted the kid I am talking about is incredibly ****ing annoying. But he still deserves to be treated decently by the people who get paid to work here.

I have had multiple meetings with the Center Director... however nothing has happened. Except increased troubles for myself. The staff end up finding out, or the students, and I get in trouble.

I have no credentials. I NEED this place. I'm 22, it's my last shot at proving I have some sort of education. I have gotten perfect scores on every single academic test given to me. The whole reason I failed out of school in the first place was because I knew everything they tried teaching me... what's the point in doing things over and over and over, when you ALREADY know them? I figured I'd be able to simply test into college... however, that is not so. All they see is I failed out of highschool.

If I leave this place, I will be somebody with a 146 IQ flipping burgers at BK. Trying to make sure that you have it your way. I'd probably end up killing myself to be honest.

However, this place is making me more and more depressed, as I said, I am losing faith in humanity. I am tempted to do things that are against my morals, just to survive. If I stay here, I will probably end up killing myself as well.

What should I do? I can't go to the Center Director. I can't go to my RA's. I can't go to ANYBODY, and even if there were somebody to go to... I wouldn't know who is corrupt, and who is honest. I'm starting to think I should just get it over with now. Kill myself, and be done with it. It's going to happen anyway. I have no options.

Stay here, get depressed, die.
Leave, get depressed, die.