yes silver, it is a horribly confusing way to live and we often feel like a cheap detective trying to piece together some bad murder mystery plot.

sadly this isn't something that will quickly go away. time. lots of time in therapy with professional help. ain't no substitute for the work but the work.

thank goodness pdoc and therapist are supportive of meds and therapy direction. we'd be so screwed if we were trying to fly this "solo". hahahah