How stupid it can feel once one isn't in the darkness but that doesn't change how easy it is to fall right back into that kind of thinking once one has spent years practicing turning the focus of the world to oneself.

This is why it is difficult to reach out. You risk that no one will reach back because they are so focused on that black spot. Even after the darkness lifts they are focused on their light, rejoicing in it, rightfully so.

So I fumble and stumble my way around somewhere in the grey shadows. Never sure if I should grab hold.

Petunia