From the song that was posted this part is my favorite:

I have my freedom
I can make my own rules
Oh yeah, the ones that I choose

It kind of fits with what im doing too. I think on monday im firing my psychologist for many reasons. With the "i can make my own rules" thought in mind, i think im going to find one closer to home and hopefully that fits my personality better.

The inner battle i am having tho is im not sure i want another therapist. People say a lot that people more learn how to cope than actually get cured from depression. If thats true, would it be such a sin if i have the skills in place to distract myself already if i didnt find another? Even tho im not the person i want to be? I think the only real thing i need that i get in therapy is the push to continue working on improvement. If i can find a way to get that without therapy....