So I am not sure what to do at this point. I had 2 session with our new T's (husband & wife) and with my husband. The first one did not go so well as I said above. The 2nd one wasn't good either. I felt like the husband T was critizing me and making me look like a fool last night. Everything was what am I going to do to make it better. What can I do, what can I commit to. My husband barley got any questions like that. It was all about what does he want and what would help him. Not what he needs to do or can commit to.

I feel like I am on trial here. I didn't think therapy was supposed to be like this. I am so uncomfortable in there, I started crying then I completly zoned out, to the point where I couldn't even think. He kept asking me questions, I don't even remember what they are, and I wasn't able to say anything.

The wife T knew I was not with it. She did try and calm me down and get my focus on our son (we had to bring him with us since we couldn't get a sitter, he's a year old, but entertaining) so I could come back to reality. It did work, but I feel very intimidating by husband T now. I can't even look at him b/c I feel he is going to scold me, and everything I am going to do or say is not going to be right.

His wife is so nice and I can actually see me talking to her, at least at this point I could. I just not sure what I should do. Should I call and talk to wife T? Tell her how I am feeling? Let it go....I don't think that is really and option since I keep trying to block myself off from husband T.

My husband really likes the both of them and really wants to do this therapy stuff. I on the other hand, just feel it is too hard for me. Am I really ready to work on my marriage? As my personal T told me last night (it's a guy and I really get along well with him, I can tell him anything) that regarless of what happens to my marriage in the end this can at least show me what relationships are supposed to look like. Of course, I've never had any healthy relationships.

I'm just at a loss. I don't know what to do. Someone please help me.