thanx to all who replied, but if your solution was so easy I wouldn't be here. I live on a 166 sq. mile Island where resources are limited and everyone knows everyone.I don't trust Therapists, I saw 2 while I was still at school and they broke my trust, one actually told my mother everything I told her,now today she's a big mangeress at a large tour company,turned out she was never a real therapist after all.Plus I don't have a job and nothing out here is for free.