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Jan 27, 2010, 02:42 AM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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I start a new Nursing job tomorrow.  It's a great thing really, I need to have more income than the unemployment. I just can't get by on it.
This job is not permanent. It is another 13 week contract, but again....my agency manager says that this employer is looking to hire people and I may have the possibility of getting hired. (He's said this the last three jobs)
I'm scared because I am anxious I'm going to screw things up like I usually do. I have such strong values on how people deserve to be treated and I stand up for what I believe in so much, that some managers don't like it. They think I cause to much trouble and I don't bend over often enough for them.
I'm really going to try to not be so headstrong and present a softer side of myself. I'm not mean, and I am not aggressive. I just don't put up with any crap and I speak my mind.
Anyway....as with any new job, I'm also scared cause it's new and I only get one day of general orientation to get to know the company policies and such.
Parts of me don't want to go. They want to just stay home and not get out of bed. If we don't go...we can't screw anything up. But I need an income....and I need to get my life back on track. I haven't had secure employment since November of 2008. I can't go through this much longer without getting back on my feet.
I'm just scared as hell.
Anyway...just needed to get that out before going to bed.
I'm going to go to bed thinking...."I'm going to have a great day at work!!", and I'm going to repeat that to myself until I fall asleep.
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