yep - it feels authentic to me too. I am also learning to be my own parent - the safe parent I never had (omg i totally get "being hurt when i thought i was safe"). So when the child inside gets scared and cries or panics, I am learning to say to her "I've got you, I've got you". Not "you're ok" because clearly she is not ok and the situation is not ok. and she is learning to trust be because I am being authentic and not telling her "lies".