I paid the price today thebyzantine. belle1978 said to regester to make a comment if it was relevent. and i feel this is. I really messed up with this situation today.
I have personal issues of my own and dont want to go into too much detail. But i let my standards down. It was for what felt a justified cause but still was not right. I dont know if i can ever feel for belle what she describes anymore, after what has happened. And not sure if i was fully in love, just starting to think that it was starting to grow. However my love for her as a friend and a person is strong.
I can honestly and truthfully say that she is not only the best thing to happen to me, but everyone who meets her. including all you lot and you know it if you have spoken to her.
She has been there when i needed and i have always tried to do the same thing back. I cant bear the thought of loosing such a person that has helped through lifes difficulties. But whats worse is I cant bear to stand to loose the person who makes me laugh with our trips to saturn (soz belle secrets out) and much more that i wont go into cos its not my thread. and as all friends do i know ive done my best to return the favour and it is an honour to do so.
After our discussion today belle im happy we havent gotten lost. your a good mate precious. lol