Weirly, this woman DOES have psych training. She is a therapist. I went to see her in Fall of 2008 when I was trying to stay out of the hospital - she does family therapy, and I wanted to consult with her about family stuff. She took a STRONG interest in me, and suggested that I come to her for meditation instruction, so I did.

She talked about me to her guru. She brought in her journal and read me pages of it. She exhanged LONG e-mails with me. She talked about when "we" would visit her guru in February. I was super SUPER worried about boundaries and kept asking her about it, and she finally wrote to me that I could let HER keep track of the boundaries. So, I trusted her to do that.

She did want me to stop working with T and start working with her, but I didn't want to. I just wanted to do the meditation stuff.

All of a sudden in January she stopped returning my e-mails. She met with my T and told him that she thought the lines between therapist and teacher were getting blurred. She had *T* tell me that. I was SO ANGRY. She didn't even tell me herself, she just stopped talking to me. I brought in a bunch of her e-mails to show T that SHE invited me to e-mail as much as I wanted to and SHE said that SHE would keep track of the boundaries.

I guess I had forgotten how all of that made me feel when I e-mailed her this past December. She made me feel like there was something fundamentally wrong with me - like she had seen into my soul somehow, and decided she couldn't be around me anymore. So her "as you tagged it" comment made me feel invalidated, I guess.

Honestly,I just want to take 5784395043587 pills. I don't do anger well at all. It feels way way way way way too scary for me.