Perhaps you should start back on the Zyprexa until you see the PDoc to get on something new. If you havet been off it too long, some is still in your system, and won't take long to kick in - since you now know it was helping you. I understand totally about weight gain, I was on an anti depressant once that caused me ALOT of weight gain - but I decided - "HEY - I can be fat and happy, or slim and sick".......I went with the FAT ! Thank goodness they realized I didnt need an antidepressant after about a year, and once I was off it, I lost the weight. But, sometimes I guess we have to weigh the benefits/side effects and decide which is the lesser of 2 evils. Good luck - and I hope that you start feeling better !