I have a tendency to masturbate when I am anxious. It is a quick source of stress relief. The problem is that I do it more often (2-3xs/week) than I would like and I often feel guilty after I do it (I'm married). Plus it's often not physically satisfying and I feel like a loser after I do it. I am under a lot of stress (currently unemployed) and often home alone, so I find it difficult not give in to the urge. I wish I could have more control over this urge. Part of me says don't get hung up about this. Another part says it doesn't help my self-esteem, so I should control it. This is the first time I have ever admitted this publicly.