I keep having bad thoughts. My counselor asked today if i was having them. I told her i was and she asked the required questions. I told her the truth, kind of. I left out how often these thoughts keep popping into my head.

she asked if i'd considered going to the hospital. i told her I had but because i do'nt know what happens there and i'm sure one can't smoke, I probably wouldn't go. But, these thoughts are driving me crazy...

how does one know when it's time to go to the hospital? and, what does one say when they get there? Sometimes, my thoughts begin to scare me...i forgot to tell her that too...

I'm just tired of feeling soooooooo badly....