For specially those who know me.....
After around six months, I got brave enough to face the reality that Aaron has moved on and he might come to the class with the girl.....so, I made my mind....I love my dance class and I went there....good lord, he wasn't there....two sessions and he's not there....I felt more confident....this time I decided to show up in the teacher's party thinking that he might come with his girlfriend, the one that he got after me
He got there late...but ALONE!!!! hmmmm.....He was surprised when he saw me....I walked towards him and said hi and we hugged each other.....I forgave him already and felt great.....then he sat next to me and start talking....very quickly, he told me "Marjan, the girl that last time you saw me with, has dumped me!"....I was so surprised why he tells me that....but I saw so much sadness in his eyes....I felt his pain....I told him I'm so sorry for you....He said it was getting so serious that's why he was shocked and he lost so much weight!!!!!
anyway, the chemistry was still there between us, but I don't want him back....I had enough of pain from him.....we danced together and we were like old friends.....wherever I was going, he was coming and standing next to me....but nothing more than friendship....and I didn't care.....
Then Sunday, I went out with Kevin and it went very well....I really enjoy his company....but he doesn't call....he said he likes to take it slow....probably, that's good for me too....He's a good guy...He's not a player like the way that Aaron was....and I feel so safe with him....it's been four months that I've known him.....
I don't want to get attached to him at all.....I just want to see how it will go....I've been so lonely for a long time that I appreciate being with him....Not sure, why he wants it this much slow....like after four months, he kissed me....I don't get it really.....but he looked so passionate and he told me that he likes me from the day one.....he told me several times how much he likes me....He's going to my dance class and he's willing to learn.....he doesn't know about Aaron and I don't want to tell him.....I won't dance with Aaron if Kevin is around.....I don't want to ruin this relationship at all.....I hope I can make something out of this one.....
I'm so happy and relaxed when I'm around him.....this is very new feelings for me....and I feel safe, even now that he hasn't called me and he just texted me, I know that he will soon......
Life has so much turns and twists....I remembered how many nights I cried over Aaron and now I think how stupid I was.....He didn't worth it at all.....He jumps from one girl to the other.....and I was not happy with him....I felt so insecure and sad....he had all these girls around him and he didn't care at all.....I told him what did you do to the girl that she dumped you???? but I didn't want to tease him more....he was already in pain.....
It's stupid, but I felt sad for him even for the girl....although, both of them caused me so much sadness, but still we are all human being and all we want is happiness!!!!
Thanks for reading my thread....wanted to share with somebody.....
I think life is so short for being sad and angry.....
Marjan