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Originally Posted by zooropa
tThis break in trauma work has been strange, it's almost made me feel like I'm not supposed to talk about it, like I'm not *allowed* to talk about it, and that of course is the story of my LIFE and not a good feeling at all.
therapy, it's so confusing sometimes, isn't it?  |
OH wow, zoo, I have had this feeling during breaks in the trauma work. I have actually told T that I almost feel like I need to be "invited" to talk about it again. I am so so so so so trained to not tell that it's REALLY easy for me to slip back into "secrecy" mode. AND I start thinking "T doesn't want to hear this stuff anyhow". Ugh!
For ME, if I am taking a break from trauma work and the flashbacks continue, sometimes it means that I actually need to gently allow myself to start working on it again. I don't know if this is the case with you, but it is true for me.
Can you tell T that you are feeling like you are not allowed to talk? That has actually come up for me repeatedly in therapy (even after this last "trauma work" break we took over the holidays!), and it's something I always need to work through with T so I can open up again.
to you, zoo
