as i am new i thought i would try and let you through my mask of normality lol.
i suppose i have been suffering from depression for many years but i just didnt realise it untill about 4 years ago, until then i wasnt unhappy but i wasnt happy if you get me, i just went through the motions.
then there was a big upheaval in my life when my long term partner ended it which forced me out with nothing.
i didnt know what was worse, dealing with the break up or the total change of my life and what to do next, i dont like big change.
one year later i lost my job and then my struggles became harder untill they were too much, not much of a home, no job, no money and no future as i could see. i was a let down to myself, my friends and my family.
i couldnt even take my kids to the movies !!
alcohol and a messed up attempt followed, then medication, therapy and a realisation that something needed to change......me.
now i am not on meds and dealing with things my own way, one day i will get there.
thats the short version, doesnt seem much but to me it has been hell but then all pain is relative so they say.

now each day is still a struggle but i am working thru it.