I told my pdoc I don't like winter (he didn't ask why) it's because it's cold and he wanted me to get a $300 light and said I had this syndrome that I know I don't have. I am 56 and and never had it. He is mad at me. I'm going to a new pdoc Mon. I couldn't sleep. I wanted to die. I went to my regular doc and he gave me a few sleeping pills and 10 25 mg zoloft but I still feel like dying. I haven't ate today. I hope this new pdoc is good. We shall see.