Like you experince on the bridge, I almost killed myself on an impulse. It's very hard to talk about, heck it's hard for me to think about, how close I came. I'm glad you didn't do it. I keep thinking about some of the things my therapist has said to me, about how she would never violate my trust or her position, for a long time I thought she was being a bit overly, well overly something, about it. But after reading some of things people her have written (yours included) I see how easy it would be for a therapist to abuse their position, and how much it would hurt a paitent down the line. I'm so sorry this happend to you, I hope that he gets punished and can never hurt anyone else again, but more than that I hope you can heal.....