Thanks everybody !

I think I know what I want, but it is indeed difficult to read into other people's mind. I wish there was some communication. I would much rather have direct answers. From now on, I will stop believing anything at all. As long as I don't have specific questions and answers, I will practice my blank face and repeat "I don't understand. What do you mean by that ?" or "What's your point ? I am a busy woman". Imagine his face!!! Oh boy.