Cafegrrl! First, big huggs and then a quite little one. I think your idea to talk to the socia lworker is good. You might be able to work out something for your mom while you are away. I mean, I remember when i was really ill and sould have gone to a hospital, but didn't because I was afraid of all things that you are. Now, looking back, I realize how much of that fear was from the illness itself. I needed help, and nothing that I was afraid of was actuallly worse than that I was going through. I was not in a position to evaluate my decision at that point. As it was, treating my actual illness was put off for nearly ten years, my family suffered unnecessarily seeing me suffer.
I know it sounds harsh, but it wasn't meant to be. It is so easy to be afraid of change, and deprssion makes it even worse by telling us to expect the worst. Mostof the tim, he's lying. HUggs, and I really hope you are making it through the night OK.