(((((((( dear kindergirl )))))))) when you actually see your mother, perhaps her weakness and illness will help you to put away the past. At least for the time you will be with her.

Please know this: you will have the blessings of Heaven for going to your mother in her last days - especially if it costs you so much to do so.

Your kindness to her now will be a sweet and relieving memory to you for the rest of your life. I know, because for all pain in my life that had my mother as the center of it, she died in my arms and I wouldn't have had it any other way. At that moment I remembered none of the bad, only the good. And the memory of her last moments causes me no conflict or guilt, only relief and happiness. God bless you my dear!!! SAWE