I am sorry you tried to hurt yourself. I think sometimes people close to us don't know how to deal with the illness and sometimes they don't take our hurt serious. They are unable to know how dangerous a unhealthy mind can truly be. We here value your feelings, care about you and hope you can find someone to validate that you truly are hurting and at times it can be so daunting you don't know how to go about telling others let alone how to fix it. I hope maybe you can get some practice here where you can talk to people who do know to some degree and can empathize. Please be safe and take care of yourself.