Thank you all again for your replies.

I just got off the phone with T. I brought up the feeling of me being unheard and misunderstood during our session, and mentioned how it's been on my mind since I left. She said she sensed that I had some of those feelings toward the end. I said how I felt like we kinda argued a bit, and that was frustrating. She said she didn't feel like we were arguing, but she respected that as my view.

After I said my piece, she said she wants to revisit some of those feelings the next time we see each other. Also, she felt like we left room to discuss my SI issue deeper than we have in the past, which is a good thing. She said as far as the here and now, she wants me to know that she's glad I came to her about this, so she can try and maintain the safe environment that we've created. And she said that our relationship remains the same and is unaffected by this.

I think this is HUGE for me. We've never talked about "us" and our relationship before. It was really reassuring to know that she's not pissed at me, and that our relationship is fine. That takes a HUGE load off my chest. Also, it's really cool that this is the first time she's ever mentioned our relationship before. It feels good, I have to admit.