For a few months in the winter, we open later, so I can go before work. Some other months, I have someone open for me and I come in 15 min late. AND then in the summer, I go on an extended lunch break during the day! I was sooooo nervous trying to figure out my schedule with my boss. He is super nice, but I don't want him knowing I go to therapy! I just said I go to an appointment and left it at that. Now, I've been going for over 2 years, so he MUST know, but he doesn't say anything.

Something that I'm very worried about is having to go to work after if I ever actually cry during session. I've had rough days where I was exhausted or just more vulnerable feeling, but I usually can just pull through. I actually just talked about this with my T yesterday. I told her I am so afraid of crumbling into a million pieces if I truly let out my feelings. It has happened before, and I can NOT afford to crumble at this job. It is customer service based and I am always friendly and smiley at work. I can't be feeling like I need to run to the bathroom and cry every 5 minutes. My T says she doesn't think that will happen, that I am at a different place than I was 5 years ago. She says I will crumble if I don't let it out, but THAT feels safer. I don't know!