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Old Jan 29, 2010, 04:42 PM
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I do my best to refrain from using the word "hate" as it has such a negative sound with a psychological impactive strength to it.

For much of my younger years I've spent alot of my time disliking myself, even though I did my best to try to convince myself otherwise. My self opinion continued to repeat itself in cycles, (like vs dislike), and it seemed with every "down" cycle (disliking), it became gradually deeper, finding more to dislike, as though I was seeking justification for my lack of understanding WHY I disliked myself. It really didn't make much sense to me as I've always been a good person, (however in my teens, somewhat rebellious, but I believe that had little to no relevance to "who" I was...just a phase).

As I've aged and gained awareness, I've come to realize that despite my past misunderstandings were about myself, they originated from somewhere. I've realized that I "learned" this thinking process from, of course, being taught. And upon my discovery that it IS a thinking process, I also realized that any process can be altered. We "think", therefore we "are", sorta thing.
All those years I spent with inner contradiction & confusion. I KNEW I conducted myself with respect & regard for others, yet something inside of me was tugging at me, resulting in a great sense of self-disapproval, (thus disliking myself), and always questioning myself.."Why am I 'not' trying harder?"..."Why 'can't' I achieve greater?"..."I 'should' be happier"..."I 'wouldn't' be this, if I had done that".."I 'won't' ever be happy".
('not', 'can't', 'shouldn't', 'wouldn't', 'won't', and any other negative reinforcements..."hate"), are words which maintian a "doom" mental scenario for ourselves.
It was that process of thinking which carried the negative that I "learned".

The primary part of altering our own selves is HOW we think, not just about ourselves, but also, about how we perceive life, in general, (though it does start within ourselves...which is why it is so difficult).

I admit, it is a slow progress to alter our thinking, but it really DOES work.
If we can learn to "hear" how we think...to pay notice to the words we choose to utilize in our expressions, AND use the positive to replace the negative, then that is the step toward how we begin to view our own selves. We retrain our thinking process, and begin to attract toward ourselves that of which we actually think. As we practice this alteration it becomes easier.
ANY positive takes presedence over negative, (a perfect example of that practice is shown throughout this reply of mine, if you haven't already noticed).

You've received some great advice. Making a list, focusing primarily on the positive, is a great start. Try to pay notice to what words you use for thought & expression.
What I did was I wrote a few paragraphs of a description of myself. I was as honest as possible, without paying attention to any "good/bad". I just wrote what I felt about myself. I then reviewed it as though someone else had written it. I circled all the descriptive words used, "positive" (in green), and "negative"(in red). This provided me some great insight on HOW I think, which helped me a great deal on where to begin to apply alteration.

Perhaps, you can try this method, as well, at least to provide yourself a better understanding of how you think, therefore why you feel...

Below are a couple links I am including to "The Secret". It is something that I discovered early last year, which, upon my discovery, had only reinforced what I already knew, (however opened many new avenues for me). I am hoping they can help you, as well.



http://thesecret.tv/

I hope this helps you some.
I wish you all the best. Take good care.

Shangrala
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