if you were in a physical, mental abusive relationship, did you stay?, if so, why?, why did you accept this?, is it unusual for someone to honestly believe they dont deserve any better?

Fear, abandonment,
Feelings of worthlessness,Believeing it was my fault that i deserved it.That i was a disgusting ***** and it was his right,he had needs too.If i did leave him he said he would kill me and kidnap my baby.He said he loved me,he didnt mean it and he would kill himself if i left.
He said i had noone else in my life,that noone else cared for me,My own mother wouldnt realise i was dead for at least a month.

He was right


Because i had noone to turn to,noone would believe me and if i did tell they would say it was my fault anyway

in the end i felt i had two choices kill him or kill me.

i decided to kill me,so i stayed because i wanted to die,i wanted him to kill me in the end.

If you did get out, does it still effect you?

Yes every waking hour of everyday