perhaps it was shuttled off into part of your mind that was supposed to keep it secret. there is also generally a lot of shame attached to abuse of any kind...that's how they keep us silent. so perhaps that was what kept you from writing. there is also the fact that if so many other boundaries were being crossed, would you have had any claim to privacy of any kind? if not, then you might not have written so that it wouldn't be seen by people who would only use it to hurt or shame you.

those are a few of the reasons that come to mind for me... maybe one of them rings true for you?

(((((((((((w_i)))))))))))

i believe you.

-shadow