Therapy has never been appealing to me and I've never really thought that I needed it. There are very few people I can trust with things like this which is probably the main reason why I haven't bothered to find one.
Thank you for the warm welcome. I've been reading posts on the forums for about a year but never thought to join because I didn't think my actions were bad enough or important enough to mention. I mean how many SI people come through these forums. what makes me stand out and why should I matter? I want to get better but I don't want to subject myself to something like therapy.