I'm so glad that you are able to share your experience with those of us here. There is a safe place for you here, hopefully to heal and grow. I am so sorry to hear of what has happened to you at such a young age. Nothing like that should ever be able to happen to any child, and I'm so sorry you had to go through it. I hope that you start to find meaning in your life. Maybe someday you will help other people to get through the pain that you must be going through right now. I just hope that you're able to work through it all okay. Do you have a counselor to talk to while you're working through this?