There was a post a few months back from Nerak regarding loud noises you hear in your head when your on the brink of sleep. I was at the hotel today and was trying to get some much needed rest because I barely slept at all last night and just as I was about to drift off I heard this loud bang or like something big exploded. I jolted awake and looked around the room. It took me a minute to realize that it was in my head. It scared me.

Like I said I was in the hotel trying to sleep as hubby went over to his sisters house to clean the cars because they have not been cleaned since we have been here. I have to be honest and say that I was quite anxious about being alone. I am not so sure why. I was never anxious about being alone before but now I was afraid. I guess being in a strange hotel in a strange city is partly the reason.

I ended up drifting off to sleep and I had weird dreams the entire time I slept. I mean really off the wall, disturbing dreams. I wont go into it now because I really do not want to trigger anyone but trust me when I say, they were weird. I know that these dreams are not real but somehow upon waking, they seems to stick with me for a while and thus making me very anxious and nervous.

I know that I have lots going on that contributes to my anxiety but I am trying to stay on top of it. Talking about it and stuff. I guess that is why I am posting this now. Sometimes, anxiety makes me feel so alone. It manifests itself in many forms. Thoughts, fears, weather justified or not, anxiety is hell and it plain out sucks!!!!

Well, I guess that is all I have to say. Just needed to put my thoughts and feelings out there. Thanks for listening once again.


Love,


Jen