Me too. I was numb so much probably because of PTSD and my horrid past. I was abused for crying. You soon learn to become a robot, it is safer that way in that situation.

BUt as an adult, that doesn't work so well. My T now, one of the first things we worked on was feeling whatever and identifying it. I have gone from I dont' know what I feel to actually being able to name it. Then I have to learn to be okay with that feeling-knowing that feelings come and go, the bad ones are hard. Then part I am in now is learning to regulate my reactions to those feelings. It is like being a toddler, learning the rules of feelings and learning how not to act out. It is hard. If I saw what you did in the store, it would have triggered me badly. Hope you are okay.