I know how you feel... if that helps at all. Sometimes yes, sometimes no. I am feeling more up the last few days and it is a nice break from the misery that often controls my every thought and action. I hope you can see some light in the darkness today. Laugh therapy and self pampering can sometimes be a source of relief for me when the going is tough. Especially if it has been for an extended period of time. I just need to find a way to escape myself sometimes and I go digging into my bag of tricks until something works. Here for you.