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Originally Posted by zooropa
(((MUE))) that sounds SO much like me, knowing I'm feeling something but not knowing what that something is. One thing I worked on, w/T and on my own, was figuring out where in my body I felt it. That was REALLY hard for me at first because I don't like to feel things in my body. But it's gotten a little easier. It sounds like you are already there, somewhat, you know you have that butterflies in the pit of your stomach feeling for example.
The other thing was that my T gave me a list of emotions and I spent a lot of time reading it when I knew I was feeling something but I didn't know what. I did a lot of journaling, I'd write where in my body I felt it and then I'd look through this long 2-page list of emotions and try to pick the one that was closest to what I was feeling.
Anyway, that helped me in the beginning stages of that 'unthawing' but that was just a few months ago and I still have to work at it. I still can't cry, for example. Oh, every now and then a movie or something might make me cry but that's pretty rare. I know my T is kind of expecting me to cry as we go through trauma stuff, but I can't, it's just not there. I wish I could cry, I just can't.  |
I'm glad I'm not alone...
So, I've identified where the feeling is....and kinda what it feels like....but am still at a loss as to what is causing it. Maybe if I sit with it a while and go through different aspects of my life, something might cause a surge of that feeling - which would help. But I am avoiding that exercise, because it stirs up all sorts of feelings and I wouldn't want to be overwhelmed with all of them at once, just by going through the exercise.
I have cried before in T....only once or twice....and I've cried in group T a few times as well. Most of it, though, was talking about specific issues - and there wasn't this unexplainable feeling in the pit of my stomach. It just kinda happened, with lots of resistance too.
*sigh*