Wow thanks for sharing that. Its something I'm working on just now. For years I've found it difficult to feel things especially intense feelings- good or bad. I wasn't allowed to feel sad or angry as a child. So I had to hide those feelings in particular. I was just thinking about what one of my T's said to me recently about finding it hard to feel things intensely. At the moment I'm allowing myself to feel things, talk about them and not do something destructive to myself to get rid of the feelings.