Exactly what it says. I'd be lying if I said my intentions weren't selfish, but I've really come to like 'em, and I'd hate to drive them away just because I'm too weak-willed to control my impulses. What does that make me, but just another out-of-control psychopath that ends up in prison or on the streets? I know I'll never be the most generous individual, but I do have certain standard of living that I wish to achieve. And Nikki, especially, is interesting and unique, and for some odd reason she loves me. I know I can't return the favor, but this is as close to love as I'll ever get. I don't want to lose that.

Just out of curiosity, why is that quote, out of everything I said, the most troubling?